a mixture of sian-ness.
it's really not easy to be a christian.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

even if my heart was cold as stone, the tears still came out.
it was uncontrollable.
i felt nothing in my heart.
no warmth, no heartache, no feelings.
but still, the tears flowed out.
it was beyond logic.
beyond explaination.
except one, God.

when i felt soul-less, numb, and cold the tears just flowed.
when do u cry? when u experience intense emotions.
but me? there were no emotions involved.
my brain was feeling perfectly normal.
the only explaination i can offer is God.
the message was truely from God.
it was Him calling me.
my heart felt nothing but my body responded with tears.

it is from God. 100% chop stamp curry pok.