Reflections: Part 1, School Horror + IMF

hmm.. as the year 2006 comes to an end, i guess its time to do some little reflections..
i dunno how to start it, but here goes. haha.

in school, i thank God i have good friends, both christians and non-christians.
i also thank God that i had wonderful projectmates. =)
to me, i find that i am still quite ashamed of myself for not achieving As for marketing, bus stats and accounting.
even though i got A for coursework, i screwed up my exam papers most probably..
and talking about A, i've also yet to achieve an A for any subjects yet.
although i had a Z before, but its for a subject that has almost no relation with my course, french.
yes, i scored Z for french.
and they say i'm good at frenching. haha
je ne suis pas des contente!
it shld mean "i'm not contented", but whatever. i think i lost touch.
can only remember some words..haha.
tu est libre se soir? (are u free tonight?)
que'est tu numero? (can i have your number?)
bonjour! salut! comment ca va? (morning! hi! how are you?/how's it going?)
je suis celibataire! (i'm single!)
mon anniversaire ce lest cinq septomb. (my birthday is on 5th sept. =))
haha. i think i got some spelling and grammar wrong, but it should be sth like tt.
R.S.V.P means Reply Sil 'Vous Plait (please).
i dunno how to spell the french 'reply', and i'm only guessing the meaning of R.S.V.P. haha.
cant really rmb what it stands for.
hmmm.. now, this sem, i'm taking another language called japanese.
although it may seem useless again, i pray that i can score a Z for it as well to help pull up my GPA.. hahaha.
so, back to school...
i'm enjoying life in sentosa, its just so fun!
i rmb during the briefing how we whined about the distance, but its really worthwhile to study there.
its an experience no one else, other than students of our courses, will have.
i still remember during briefing, matthew was saying "i hope i dun get ahbengs as my classmates".
then came this guy who looks like some surfer dude, with curly hair like long time never wash. haha.
and we were praying hard not to be in the same class as this person.
but well, everyone's weird till u meet them.
and i think the people in TAS are very friendly and fun.
i remember first few weeks of life in TAS, the lab was flooded and printer exploited!
no place at all to print notes, and there were only 2 labs, 4 printers..
quite pathetic. and we had to chiong for the printer and fight for usage.
and everytime printer jam, HTM all knows who caused it. =x
or maybe we're just being prejudiced against the other HT* pple. hahahahaha.
it was fun, going to school, seeing people of different nationality and unique sense of fashion.
where most of the HTB students had this 'explosion' hairstyle.
i think they are all really rich people, to be able to come over to singapore for tertiary education.
its not cheap, its really expensive..
they also tend to lose out more because of english.. sometimes, i really want to help them, but i dunno how to help them because my chinese is half bucket water. hahaha.
go china, thailand, indonesia etc further studies, sure fail..
hmmm.. the most classic thing that happened to me in TAS was this:
while in class, leah complained about her pimple, so big.
telling everyone in the group, including me of cause.
then after that, she said: "owww, i feel blood oozing out"
so i turn around and said: "where? i see?"
all of the sudden, my whole project group turned their heads and stared at me.
n said: "wenqi!!! what u saying!!!"
me: "huh?? wat? ur pimple burst huh??"
they: "no!!!!!!!!!! u hum sump! pervert!"
me: "huh?? ur pimple burst, then blood oozing out right??"
they: "no!!!!"
me: "ohh... ok..........................................."
felt so awkward!
i guess i don't have to say what really happened..
so it isn't all that great to be surrounded by girls all the time.
i need guys as well in my life!!
but being forced to hang out with girls and do projects with them gave me the opportunity to see the ugly side of girls. haha.

next up, IMF 2006.
it was quite a horrible experience with suntec.
they employ too many part-timers, thus we really work so much shorter.
and we dun see the need of going to work, but yet they just need us..
i remember the water team always hide at level 4 storeroom. hahaha.
sit there, slack, play, then go home and get paid.
all we did was act busy, put up water bottles, remove empty bottles, top up disposable cups in the office, top up fish tank.
it was quite fun now when i think back.
i remember only one time we were allowed to do OT, which was working in a cocktail..
saw many many people from many many different countries.
held one round tray with one white wine, one red wine, one coke and one orange juice i think.
walk around so many times, keep changing hands cos tired..
then after that muscle sore.. haha.
really tiring..
then after that, when it was almost ending, secretly ate one satay and got caught..
so i'm not that discreet afterall. got sent home after that. so i received $5.50 less cos cocktail ended one hour after i was sent off. haha.
derrick so funny, say i stupid.
eat one satay, sacrifice $5.50.
unlike lynette who took a prawn, and cheryl a pastry.
hahah. they got sent home too, but i tot i was quite stupid also.
satay $0.20 i pay $5.50 for it..
matthew was a slacker during imf.
whole event 10days, with 1 day off = work 9days.
he 1 day off, 2 day mc, then 1 day off again.
dunno what sprain left ankle, then after that jump jump over bush sprain right ankle.
hahaha. so dumb!

i guess i'll blog till here now..
its 1230am! and i'm tired alrdy.
tml morning going to worship the Lord again!! =)
shall reflect on other things the next time.

japanese rock just rock! haha.
borrowed a few cds from my cousin.
although those cds are considered quite old, they're still very nice to listen to me.
really just enjoy listening to them, although i dunno what they're singing about.

yesterday went out with jj, zhenghong, ahmeng, qiu n kaili.
its been a long time since i last saw them.
had an enjoyable time chilling out, eating and walking around.
though they went vivo, which i'm a little sick of that place now. haha.

everytime i go out, i see so many people.
especially couples, everytime i see them, 'wah, the girl so pretty, but the guy . . . errr . . .'
hahaha. the guy like that, the girl also want?
so i always tell myself 'hmm.. this mean i still have chance to get a pretty girlfriend!' =)

having worship retreat tml!
looking forward to it!

the thought of projects just kills my mood.
haiz, i tot there would be consultation tml, but i guess i read the email wrongly..
but still, i'll be going down to tp tml with jasmin to look for clues about the project.
haha!
she also havent started, super jialat!
and i think me and her are the only ones who haven't started yet..
what are some of the areas of services that should be provided during meetings and conventions?
i don't really have much of a clue!
i'm very doomed..
the project date due is on 8th jan.. its coming very soon..
this is the time whereby i will think "why can't i be born smarter?"
haha, if i am smarter, things would be easier.
but i'm just plain lazy.
argh!! no point blogging now!
i need to do some research!!
so doomed and busted!

after so long, i've finally finished reading 'Battlefield of the Mind'.
haha.
hmm.. but i guess its not just about reading it, but how long it takes to learn what i have read.
learning is a lifelong process.
i'll have to discipline myself to put what i've read and learned into practice.
it'll take a lifetime, but i'm sure i can do it!
little by little everyday, little by little in every way, Jesus is changing me!

for christmas, i've received two books.
one from pastor siau choonfui, and one from mr chan earnghan.
hahaha.
one book called 'Daily Praise', the other 'Growing Deep in the Christian Life'.
'Daily Praise', i guess its a daily devotions book. haha.
all the way for 52weeks. its about the many names of God.
like Jehovah, Jehovah Jireh, Jehovah Shalom etc.
its a book to be read slowly, learning to praise God everyday for who he is.
i guess i'll start on it on 1st jan? haha.
though i know i may not read it faithfully everyday, i shall put in my best effort to read it!

so, after i finished reading 'Battlefield of the Mind', i felt a little excited to see what 'Growing Deep in the Christian Life' is all about.
its just like a kid who can't wait to open his present and see what is inside! hah.
so i just read the introduction of the book.
its actually about Bible doctrines......
yes.... doctrines....
haha. to the author, he describes that when many people hear of the word doctrine, it gives them an impression that it is boring.
but to me, i don't think so!
i think it's interesting and serious..
interesting to find out about my roots.

Choosing your preference, rearrange these topics in the order you consider most interesting and timely. Which interests you most? The least? Give each a number from one to seven.

- a biographical look at a bliblical character
- a verse-by-verse analysis of a book in the New Testament
- a serious study of biblical doctrines
- what God's Word teaches about the home and family
- moral, social, and ethical issues according to Scripture
- biblical principles for success and personal motivation
- Proverbs made pratical for today

this is an extract from the introduction.
hmmm.. i guess for me, the order is: 6, 5, 7, 4, 1, 2, 3
the book then continues saying that the study of doctrine would be ranked toward the bottom by many people.
i think that is quite true now, because looking at the other topic choices, it just seems so dull now..
what we need is not facts facts facts and more facts, but a breakdown of these huge facts into smaller bitesize pieces.
words used have to be easily understandable and lesser jargon used.
too much jargon will make the doctrine very dull, unappealing, boring..
this book promises that it will be an interesting book, using minimal jargons, easy to understand.
no need to flip the dictionary every 6-7 words. haha.
so my conclusion, it would be a good book to be read, helping me to know my roots, know the doctrines, refill my 'ammos' and increase my Bible Knowledge.

bought a watch today!
haha.
went shopping around with thomas, weiliang, aloysius and yonghong.
the watches were so expensive!!
the nicer ones of cos..
saw this fossil watch, very nice!
but $215..
couldn't afford it.. haha.
then went to citichain.
my goodness, its not a place for me.
the watches are super expensive!!
$400+ and up. i dunno where's the upper limit.. haha.
but in the end, i found one timex watch.
i think its quite nice, and its within budget. heh.
my wrist was so small that the person had to remove 7 of tt thing (dunno wat's it called.)

hmmm.. my brothers are most likely at yiyi's hse now.
he just came back from tekong! haha.
and he has to return tml nite. its quite sad..
i heard that when u book in again is dependant on your sgt.
so i guess his sgt has no life, and no one to celebrate christmas with, tt's why want them to book in tml night..
quite sad. hah.

i wish that my christmas was a more eventful one, but unfortunately its not..
celebrated on all other days, other than christmas day itself..
celebrated with my relatives today alrdy.
hmm.. tml? no programs.. no date.. nobody wants.
i guess the only thing that wants me are my projects! haha.
kinda lazy to ask pple out, as i guess most should be party-ing tml.
nevermind!
i'm free tml!!! date me anyone???
hahaha. sounds so desperate!

Merry Christmas!

today after adult rally, went to joo chiat to eat wanton mee with my parents.
quite long never eat out with my parents, and quite long never eat joo chiat wanton mee.
haha. i love the noodles!!
but just that the wanton standard has dropped i think.
i still find the wanton at tamp round market the best!
the wanton filling is not too salty, unlike joo chiat one..
and the wanton skin is definitely better!
smooth and the texture is execellent!
due to my limited vocab, cant really describe it well. haha.
but the joo chiat wanton skin is a little more hard and clumpy, and the filling i find too salty.
nevertheless, joo chiat wanton mee is wonderful!

when the drinks arrived, the drink auntie i think was quite funny. haha.
she ask me wan to eat 'ji tui' or not.
say very nice, and she seems to be talking only to me.
i was quite shocked and a little intimidated.
in joo chiat at 10+pm, auntie ask young boy wan to eat 'ji tui' or not, sounds a bit wrong.
haha. maybe i'm thinking too much??
but then its quite weird for her to seem to be talking only to me.
what makes her think that i'll be the one paying when my parents are around? haha.
anw the drumlets quite cheater leh..
i think it is those instant fried drumlets. not really nice.
there's no bite to it.
$5 for 8 pieces!!
haha. not worth it if u're looking for something good..

yay!
had an enjoyable night! haha
i tot it was quite fun..
just that i walked a lot.
very tiring. haha.

well, after 1 whole night of fun and activites, it's time to get back a little to work..
yes.. a little.. hehe.
i really wanna do my work, but its still a celebrative mood!! hahaha.=p
tml having jap meeting at 12!
then going to church at night.
quite excited!
God, please grant me the strenght to go on and move on!

whee!
christmas celebration later. heh
hmmm.. maybe now i'm really looking fwd to it?
amidst all the project deadlines, christmas celebration??
i shall put all my worries, anything that will hinder myself from enjoying out of my mind, and just enjoy myself to the fullest! =p

but then.. thinking again, hmmm..
i dun really have much time for projects, or celebration!
tml night, having leader's meeting.
which i bet tml afternoon i may be sleeping after tonight's celebration. haha
and fri night gg to church, maybe afternoon as well?
to settle the logistics stuff for sat's youth christmas party!
sun? haha. definitely not free.. celebrating christmas with relatives..
so i guess mon, tues, thurs have to chiong.
wed night gg out with sec sch friends! haha.
29th-31th worship team retreat!
busy busy busy. heh, both with work and celebration.

hmm..
i'm quite confused..
as i look back, i really wonder if all these that had happened, were they for nothing?
were all that were done meaningless?
do they not mean anything?
or am i just thinking too much?
hmm.. i really wonder..
maybe its a que that i will never find an answer..

hmm.. i'm posting again, because i really want to thank God.
the book 'battlefield of the mind' is really good!
it tackles a lot of 'wilderness mentalities' that need to be dealt with.
this week, what struck me most is patience in waiting.
i'm really glad that God gave me the opportunity to see and know about my weaknesses..
its really true that i'm not good at handling stress.
i go berserk when i'm feeling the weight inside my heart.
i felt so anxious, so nervous, so irritated, so frustrated.
but i just had to learn to be patient..
patience doesnt simply just mean waiting, but its waiting without complain or anger.
in the midst of compiling the f&b report, i felt quite frustrated about certain stuff.
feeling tired, feeling that i just want to get over and done with it..
but i know i shouldnt! i should give my best in doing everything!
and no matter how frustrated i am, God also showed me that i must be appreciative.
i have to learn to appreciate what people have done, even though in the process i may be feeling unhappy.

this also led me to another thing, idealistic vs realistic.
its also from inside the book, heh.
i shall just say a little about it..
everyone dreams of the ideal, thinks of the ideal..
but sometimes, we think so much about the ideal until we forget about the reality.
in your own world, own mind, many things can take place..
u can imagine that the project team would produce the best work, the project team will score A etc.
but in reality, it may not actually be the case!
we are all weak, but yet we all want to strive for the best.
weak in the sense that sometimes we give in to temptations, knowing that when we are not doing what are supposed to do, we will not get the best results or the imagined results.
it is not wrong to dream of the ideal, but sometimes dreaming too much of the ideal will set us up for disappointment.
it may hurt ourselves.
we may end up feeling very upset about why we cant achieve it..

hmmm.. just like sometimes i think too much about the ideal, but in reality, its not happening, its not achievable, i set myself up for disappointment..
hmmm.. and i guess in relationships, stop dreaming of ideal. haha.
the reality is different from the ideal.
one mean one, two means two.
one doesnt equals to two.

quote quote :
" i buy curry puff for u everyday. but its ok if u don't buy me back any curry puffs, because i'm doing it out of my own will. i don't expect you to buy me back any curry puffs. you may not even notice it. "
so getting some curry puffs back in return may just be an incentive. haha.
i guess i shall just patiently wait, keeping reality in check and dreaming less about the ldeal.
whether or not, its just something that have to be left to a later date to be discovered.
i shall just view everything as an incentive, until things are confirmed.

*phew*
submitted the report yesterday..
spent $18.60 on the cab fare!!
went out of my hse at 2pm+ to go to tp.. but i'm alrdy late!!
so i cab to tp, thinking tt it would be better..
so when i reached tp, i only managed to reach at abt 3pm, and left at 4pm!
took me 1 hrs to print!
ran out of paper, went to buy file, waited for the queue at the printer..
i think there were yr 3 students wanting to print out their FYP report or sth..
so had to wait, then once they're away from the printer, chiong ar!!!
haha. ao since i got out of tp at 4pm, of cos its fated that i shld cab to TAS!!
my goodness!! i was so broke yest...
after that went to ikea tampines. haha.
i think ikea is so fun!
the bed canopy is so interesting, i almost wanted to buy it! hah

hmmm.. tml having discipleship at 9am..
*yawn* its just so early. hahaha.
God bless my days ahead, really wanna enjoy my holidays, at the same time try to be productive!
the last 3 days of the yr will be spent in church having worship team retreat.
haha. i really need to try to do some work!!
easier said than done.

yay!

i just finished compiling the report!
really hope that it'll be fine.
so damn tired now..
waiting for the appendices which are in colour to be printed out.
*yawn*
i guess tml gg to be a long day for me.
not too sure whether i wanna go over to TP or TAS to print out the report..
i'm really afraid that tas lab will be closed due to low usage..
but ultimately, i still have to go back to tas to submit the report, quite dumb huh?
after submitting, going to find some presents! haha.
maybe gg alone? so sianz, but at this hour, who can i jio?
maybe tml then find. haha.
whether or not, i still have to buy.

today's worship practice was great!!
hope saturday will turn out even better! =)

heh, to pple who may want to buy me a christmas gift, i need a new WALLET & WATCH! =P

*sigh*
*yawn*

i thank God that its holidays now..
if not for the holiday, i doubt i'll still be up now doing report. haha.
i pray hard that all the components will be in by tml 1pm
so i can compile.
tomorrow having worship practice, sat having Bible quiz!
haven't finish memorising the 20 faith verses yet!!
*sobs sobs*
yet to have bought some Christmas gifts..
i hope i have time to do tt!
its an offence to be chiong-ing projects during december.
its a festive month! a month of celebration and joy!
i should be popping champagnes and singing Hallelujah praise the Lord!

haiyaa....

just finished one super long discussion, which have not ended!!
and i missed prayer meeting!!!! how can???
grr!!! i really wonder how the other groups are doing their food cost inside the income statement..
do they project one by one the amt they are going to sell? or just take an average of the total food cost, assuming that all dishes sell well?
it is really tedious to do them one by one.
but mr goh commented that we need to review!
grrrr... there's a better way, but it will take more time.
Father Lord i just pray that it will all go well.
and i pray that You will give me the energy to continue and move on.
Lord, i pray that You will constantly remind me to be patient in waiting, for i know Your timing is the best timing.
when i look at the project, i just can't help it but feel so stressed about it.
i really wish sometimes there could be someone there for me, to lend me a listening ear and comforting shoulder..
but i should get a grip of myself, rather than dwell in the ideal, i have to be realistic.
and make the most out of it.

grrr..
i was almost late for acc test today!
haha. went out of my hse aft lunch, which was 1215.
i tot i could make it in time.. but i reach just nice on the dot!!
1pm! haha, thank God for that..
i cant believe from my hse to tp, it took me 45min.
while gg to tas takes me about an hr n 15min.
even though geographically tp is very much nearer..

*yawn* quite sick of projects.
8th jan got MICE project 2 submission!!!
really sickening to give us projects during holidays.
feeling chao sian now..
have to review F&B food cost..
just feel like getting it over and done with. haiz.

projects are the worse things ever.
it drains you of your energy and brain cells.
it takes away a large amount of your time when several projects are given at the same time.
it makes you wanna give up when the deadlines are so close to each other.
it gives you eyebag and leaves you fatigue.
but once projects are completed, hallelujah praise the Lord!

it's really quite sian.
i find that time pass faster and faster.
today will soon be gone, like yesterday is gone.
no one sundays are the same.
they all differ.
even though i may be doing the same thing, feel the same feelings on every sunday, its just different.
blah blah! dunno what i talking about. haha.

for the past few days, i've been staying out too much.
its quite bad..
thurs went yiyi's hse with dr and thomas to play monopoly.
yiyi is such a killer! hahaha, had properties just a few steps away from jail.
so once somebody gets out of jail, really pray hard that they wun kena his properties.
$950!! really blood sucker. haha.
so in the end he won loh.
after worship practice that night, went to prata stall!
haha. stayed there and chatted till 1130pm++!
so late! haha. cab home with dr, ey, n jy.
$12+, quite ex..

then on fri, after baptism, went to prata stall again! haha.
by then i was a bit sick of it.
really wanted to go barchormee with tamp gang!
haha, its the barchormee that's enticing, not the tamp gang.
it was quite bad that my brothers suan me.
then joshua asked me :" u wan bar-ship or friend-ship?"
hahaha. i tot tt was quite funny at that moment.
so in the end, i went prata.... and cab home again with raymond n eric.
really high expenses.

just yesterday, went to mac ritchie to run again!
i must be crazy. haha.
initially when i started running, really dun feel like running.
was feeling quite sian, just wanna stop, sit down and chill.
but in the end i still completed the run lah. not tt weakling!! =p
after running, went back to church to bathe and went for street-e!
it's really fun!
i wanted to stay around toa payoh longer!
though i didnt manage to share the gospel with the 3 pple i came in contact with, i managed to invite them for the christmas party on the 23th.
though they didnt wan to leave their contact, i pray that they will come and get to know Christ.
i'm looking fwd to future street-e sessions. =)

alright, gg back to f&b and burying my head into accounting notes.
very jealous that my brothers are gg to yiyi's hse to play risk!
but nvm!!! i shall clear the obstacles infront of me first!

whee!
haha
first time playing in baptism ceremony as guitarist.
but i think i didnt play very well.
quite some hiccups here and there, but well...
usually guit cant be heard. hahaha.
quite sad, but nvm. its alright..
i must seek to improve!!
hmmm.. now have to chiong F&B report.
quite sianz again, and monday having accounting test.
tues when i got back my acc class test result, i was so shocked!
i only scored a C- !! tt's 25.5/40!
first time i scored so low for accounting..
but well, this is management accounting & finance, not just simply accountings.
its more of theory.. i guess i have to do more memory work, quite lousy at that..
pray hard that i will do better for my acc term test this monday!

sentosa golf club is horrible.
the banquet manager is really idiotic.
the way he talks is so snobbish.
i don't appreciate that.
we're here for deployment, when u talk, can u at least face and look at us?
what's his problem?
its our first time inside here, he thinks that we know everything.
there wasn't any proper introduction.
like he expects me to know who the people there are, how to go to his office n report to him on the 1st day, n expects me to know his face when i haven't even seen him before.
i mean, i dun even know who you are, i dunno how you look like, can you at least introduce yourself?
can you at least play host? introduce urself, welcome us etc.
i'm not asking u to treat us like the royalty, but can u at least help us to feel home and a part of SGC, although we're just here for deployment?
i really don't wanna go back there for deployment anymore.
asking us to serve is not a problem, but can u at least show us some respect, though we're just students?
what's more, you're not even incurring any expenses!
it's basically free labour! we're doing it for free!
so what's ur problem?
what's worse, from 11am-4pm, i didnt get any lunch break.
tt stuck-up fellow told me this

"u report at 11am-4pm, you get 30min break. u work 11am-330pm, 330pm-4pm is ur break. u can go n eat."

he's really an idiot!!
if i report at 11am, obviously i have to reach at abt 1030-1045.
it takes me an hr to get there.
so i eat my breakfast at 9+am? and i have to tong until 330pm??
and mind u, how can u keep a server hungry, and yet wan him to serve in an F&B outlet w/o feeling hungry?!
i would rather work until 4pm, and get my lunch break earlier..
and during the briefing last week, i tot it was so nice of them to provide lunch for us.
but its utter bullshit now.
it was quite horrible and ridiculous when they ask yujin to go n iron the chair covers.
come here do housework?? what does she learn? how to iron?
n i heard benjamin folded napkins whole day. its crazy! what has he learnt? 101 ways to fold a napkin?
grrr.. quite dumb..
come to think of it, i know some of their names by looking at their nametag.
no one even bothered to intro a bit.
its just a place whereby they're not even hospitable at all!
n i tot SGC seems to be a place with standard, they just proved me wrong today.

*tsk tsk tsk* well...
what can i do?
tml i'm going to find ms daga to request for a change.
hopefully the change will be successful and to a better place.

attending 10am acct lecture tml!! this time i'm not getting the time slot wrong!
haha. becos i'm not gg for the 2pm-4pm slot, but rather the 10am-12pm slot.
so i'm still present and attendance will be recorded! =D
after school, maybe going to meet my brothers before gg for worship prac at night.
God bless me!

wonderful!

yay! the worse nightmare is gone!

haha. finally FM & Lodging presentation is over!
one load off.. but just that now what's worrying is whether i will pass or not.
mariah ask my grp so many ques! grrr.. but nvm. haha. its alrite......

lets put tt aside.
yesterday i made a new discovery!!
i found out that lizards can jump!! hahaha.
was walking yest from station yest. then this small little lizard ran past in front of me.
it was on the floor, and aft running a few steps, it jumped!! and stick vertically on the stairs' step!
and i tot back, sometime ago while i was in school . . .
was walking to the blue line bus stop to get to the departure centre.
b4 i crossed the road, my right hand just bumped onto the railing.
then i felt something on my index finger..
i tot it was just some fallen leaves, but when i raised my hand i looked, it's a small lizard!!
i got a shock and faster shrugged it off.
it felt a little clingy.. i tot that the wind actually blowed hard enough until the lizard flew and got stuck on my hand, but actually i think it jumped on my finger when i bumped onto the railing. and it jumped off again aft i shrugged it off.
haha. quite interesting that i found out they could jump.

tml having deployment.
at sentosa golf club.
i heard tt its really boring, the manager will exploit the students..
pray hard to God that it'll go well!! dunno how long i'll be deployed there. haha.

=(

i missed out on today's fun! haha.
well, chiong-ing projects, always miss out fun.
today after service had to go over to clarice place to do fm.
my brotherly-love brothers went to cartel n eat lah!! wa lao!! how could i miss that?!
and i ate lunch at blk 3?? breakfast at blk 3 as well???
blk3ss_hardss_corezzz_fanssssss123@hotmail.com
hahaha.
quitesss sianssssss........

but nvm!! i look forward to tues when fm&lodging and f&b ops&mgt ends!
with my eyes fixed on tues nite, gg to maybe meet thomas, yiyi, zhenghua n jack for dinner before gg prayer meeting!!! nyaahahahahahaha!

God bless my soul! =)

amazed by myself.

nyaahhahaha!
i'm back from the run!
its quite fun actually i think!
so shoik after running! 4.8km! haha.
and the last time i offically ran was when i joined "run temasek"??
run 2.4km, and only went once? abt more than 1yr ago? heh.
its quite amazing i finished, ran non-stop! praise God for tt!
really enjoyed the run. felt slightly healthier. :)

after running, went to eat prata.
HAHAHA. so wat's the use of running?
hmmm.. i guess pple like me can afford it..
everyday eat eat eat, stuff lots of rice into my stomach, nv exercise, and friend telling me "aei, u seem thinner."
but well, maybe tt's not a good sign afterall. maybe its because of all the stress?
hah.

insanity

wow.
i must be insane.
i can't believe i made such a decision.
GO MAC RITCHIE TML FOR A RUN??
i must be crazy. hahahah.
amidst the piles of projectss?
slides not yet compiled??
having project meeting tml at tp 330pm??
can i make it in time?
will i complete everything in time?
i hope i can.
had the cravings to go for a run for quite some time alrdy.
hahaha. alrite.
God, pls grant me the strength to carry on my days ahead! >.<

GRRR................

wah

today i'm just so frustrated again.
my day started out not so bad actually.
woke up at 11, had so many sms-es when i checked my hp.
not from anyone i was expecting from, but all from people i was least expecting.
not to say that they are people i was least expecting, but its the content.
all about projects. haha. quite sickening actually.
but nvm, its ok. what else can i expect?

so did my work as per normal.
finished up on the environment parts.
which i really hope is enough.
still have more things to look for and find.
i hope i can get them on time..

watched the skit they did last night.
all i can say is, I MISSED OUT ON ALL THE FUN!!!
i guess it's the opportunity costS.
i hope it's worth it for my projects.
very sick of it already.. and it's not coming to an end yet.

after watching, i went to school!
3pm then left my house.
accounting lecture at 4pm, which was the most frustrating part!
i knew i would be late, so msged leah as her get a seat for me.
while on the train, thinking about jamming sessions on thurs, was thinking about it that i would always be late because accounting finishes at 4pm, and earliest i would reach church is 5pm.
when i reached harbour front on the escalator up, i was wondering about MICE lect starting at 11am and ending at 1pm.
ALL OF THE SUDDEN!!
my mind got stucked on 1pm.
hmmm.. "1pm.. acc lect 4pm.. what are my grpmates doing from 1-4? eat? lunch? i tot 1hr only?"
THEN!! i realised accounting lect starts at 2pm!!!
ahhhhh... and i felt really frustrated when i remembered that!!
how much more forgetful can i get?? i alrdy missed one lect before, now again?
and unknowingly? still happily thinking that i am attending acc lect, and now i realised acc lect ending soon??
i was really so upset and angry about it. so angry with myself.
how could i forget?? and i wasted my time going down to sch!!
cos acc lect was the last lesson on thurs!
was super pissed off..
then nvm. because aft lect, supposed to go down to holland v with grpmates to observe the crowd again.
i went there, entered the com lab, they told me not gg alrdy!
for a moment i really wanted to swear!!
no one told me that they decided not to go.
it was a really long time since i was ever so angry!
i really wanted to scream and shout and bang the wall.
so in the end, went back home, bought my own dinner cos alrdy told my mum i not coming home to eat. which in the end i had to.
sianz.

blah!! forget it.
haha. this is just here for me to vent my frustration and anger.
anw, this is my first blogspot.
was using msn spaces last time.
DOES ANYONE KNOW HOW TO IMPORT SPACES TO BLOGSPOT?
pls tell me. hahah.

grrr