the feeling of finishing my exams isssssssss sshhiiiooookkkk!!!!!!

right at the week i ended my exams, it was fully loaded with activities!

so much so that i slept almost less than 7hrs everyday.

must really thank God that the next 3 papers (PBF, POA, ME) were not that difficult.

i went in fully prepared and the questions were not as tough as i thought they would be.

maybe the difference is that i am well-prepared.

seriously mug my ass off.

i discovered more about myself through this examinations.

i realised that i am actually quite a careless person.

made quite a few careless mistakes during the paper.

like forgetting to answer one part of a ques and realising it last min, or like put some stuffs wrongly..

a bit sian, but i still left the hall gleaming and peaceful everytime. :)

i know that God is with me.

OH WELL~~~~

IT IS OVER!

and now, getting busy with my life.

today i realise that 24hrs is really a lot of time.

i think i did not use the time wisely last time.

when i was younger, i spent it playing games, chiong-ing to complete it or level up.

it was really an utter waste of time!

what do i gain at the end of the day?

maybe i get better at solving mysteries and faster reflexes at games.

but ... i'm like a useless freak.

so, not gaming = lots of time to do other things.

like upgrading my guitar skills, exercising, reading books ...

life is good. :)

The day I did my first exam paper, it was really devastating.
I can't believe I wasted 45min attempting to answer a que I thought I could do.
Obviously I ended up with lesser time.
From an efficiency point of view, I spent 45mim to score zero marks.

There came a point where I really wrote very desperately, fighting against time and the flow of my thoughts for the essays.
I almost wanted to give up and just walk out of the hall.
The paper was just simply too difficult and impossible.
I was still traumatized by my prelims result for this subject.
FYI, 6 que choose 3, 3hrs to finish.
So u can imagine, the apportionment of time is about 55min per que, 5min each to think.
I really wanted to cry when I left the exam hall. I wrote everything messily and the arguments didnt have much depth and support.
Afterall, my best strategy aft wasting 45min was to get at least a pass for each que, so that in avg I will pass the exam. Rather than write damn well for 2 que and put myself at risk of failing, as the way the examiner allocate marks is unknown and very VERY subjective.

It's the first time I ever felt so desperate and helpless. The uncertainty and ambiguity was killing me. It was almost impossible.

And now, as I study for PBF, I'm also on the verge of banging my head on the wall.

Now I'm questioning, why is it 100% exam based? My entire consistent effort throughout the year is staked on a 3 hr paper.

In school, I've learnt not to put all my eggs in one basket. But now, their system forced us to put all our eggs into one basket.

Rarrrrrrrrrr!!!