*alarm rings*
*snooze*
*'oh shit! what time already?'*
wake up, brush teeth.
bathe, change, rush to church.

my typical sunday. rush to church in the morning.
in just a short brief 2hrs, the service is over.
and everything on the sunday afternoon seem to go into a ritardando.
for the past 1yr 5mth (that reminds me that i only have 5mths left to ORD!), my sunday afternoon had been draggy and slow.
time seems to be chained up moving slowly towards one thing: book in time.
it never fails to haunt me.
it's one damn mood spoiler demoralising shit that can only happen to NSF.
just when i thought i was over and done with this feeling, i'm dreading it once more somehow today.
with a nothing to do sunday afternoon (while everyone else is busy), my focus was shifted to what was waiting at the end of the day.
not even a nice dinner to look forward to before booking in, just like how it always were before my parents flew to thailand.
argghhh, feel left out..........
just feel lonely now.
thank you SAF.